I have made an album. It is entirely instrumental electronic music, largely inspired by video games but not beholden to the formatting constraints I’d worry about if I were actually composing for a game soundtrack. Right now I’m still too close to it, still too confused and agitated and worried to say anything particularly clever or cogent about it, so I won’t. If you’d like to listen to it, click on this text.
I’ll be honest: I’m a little scared. This has been a substantial amount of my life for the last few months, and I’m scared to let go of it, scared to show it to anyone. But I have to. Art loses its value when it is hoarded. Hopefully this won’t be the last time I feel this fear: Hopefully, as I progress, I will be forced to part with greater and more ambitious projects, and I’ll come to value this mental distress as a sign that I am, in fact, doing something right. I will learn to descend through this worry and reveal the fruits of my labors.
I’m still learning. For now, it’s just really hard. But I’m doing it.